I'm so happy right now, it's crazy.

Oh.
My.
Gosh.

My flash plug just cut out on me. It doesn't work. Oh my gosh. I'm so upset, I have to re-write a four credit internal. It had all this tearaway stuff on it too and photos of family and friends and music...OMG! I'm so upset.

My system is all munted. I drink three cans of V to keep myself awake and stay up texting till three AM almost every morning. And I can't stop shaking and my vision is all lapsy. I don't know what's going on.

Three months later
Flawless, forgotten on a park bench
a glimmer of white faded amber
discarded.
Alone.
Futile gem or diamond in the rough?
Dusty footprints follow vacant lullabies
Gold diggers find
only
pyrite
with their decidedly bloodshot eyes
Dancing,
Dilated,
Dead.

Three months ago
Musky fumes in the moonlight,
glamourized
yet callously common.
Like the Doctor Pepper can,
cheap trashy metal earrings gleam
silver
and eyes crinkle
at the corners
light tanned tissue paper crumpled at the bottom of the trash can in the producer's office.

Two months ago
Teenage anxiety
Pushed up against the wall of a pub restroom stall
Sweat is laced with fear and
throbbingly pretentious panic.
Cherry stained lips make an O with the same rosebud mouth
that uttered
her
first
words.

Last month
Moonlight cascaded
watched on as the lights of a hearse glowed
dimly
in the midnight rain
unsure of their tresspassing.
42 Below, 2 for 50 in a paper bag.
Words slur, wisps of mellow euphoria
slip from adolescent tongues.

This morning
Her head spins like the kaleidoscope pattern of the kitchen table
where the suicide note
lies
next to the power bill
and the eviction notice.
Blood makes perfectly formed droplets of crimson
on the fissured concrete
as she lies motionless on dilapidated wood.

Three months later
Flawless, forgotten on a park bench
a glimmer of white faded amber
discarded.
Alone.
Futile gem or diamond in the rough?
Dusty footprints follow vacant lullabies
Gold diggers find
only
pyrite
with their decidedly bloodshot eyes
Dancing,
Dilated,
Dead.

I really like that poem. Comment.

OMG I accidentally posted on blythedoll a poll that was supposed to be posted on my private journal. Sorry guys, mistake. Am I forgiven?

...to be continued

I can't wait for this week to end. I need to get AWAAAAAY from school, it's so gay. I ate Pods yesterday (THANKYOU YUKO!) they are so yummy, like, I remember when I went up North with Janelle and we ate them like, every day.

So this weekend I'm working Saturday AND Sunday. I really can't be bothered, I would much rather party instead like the rest of South Auckland's teens. Sheree is moving her party date AGAIN. I don't think I'll go...it's not my scene.

Today we have this bake sale thing for MakePovertyHistory Group. I made banana cake and iced it with chocolate icing. It looks okay, I've never made banana cake before, probably because I don't actually like banana cake. My geo teacher just waved at me. I totally screwed up on my exams.

I got three N/As for Maths and two achieved, on number and trig. For info I got 84%, whatever that means, and for French, so far, I know I got two merits. For English I got three Excellences and an achieved, and for geo I got a merit and an achieved...omg. I need 6 more maths credits to get into uni.

No one really seemed to mind, so it looks like I'll have a pretty cruisy summer. And I might be going to Whitianga over New Year's with some friends...wooo party! Man I so can't wait for next term to be over too so we can have a long break. I can't wait for christmas either, this year's christmas is going to be the best!

Gawsh, I do write a lot for someone whose journal nobody reads.

xxx

OMG I ate so much rubbish yesterday. I had like, a fanta and chips and a chocolate bar, and then McDonalds for tea. (I saw Yuko-Amelia. HI YUKO!) XD.

So yeah. I feel really urrgghhh. Like that. Yeah.

We're going to Waihi tonight, I like can't wait, I think I'll go for a run on the beach when we're down there.

Last night I went shopping. I really hate these fuggugling polka dots and the reds and blues, they're so bland and so dull. So the only thing I'd found was this turquoise and white striped V neck knit top and then we went into JeansWest. And then I was in my element! YESSSS! We walked out $200 lighter but I got some jean shorts, a black crocheted shawl thingy with sleeves and this really deep, rich red cropped, button up, elbow length V-neck top. It was so cute! And then I tried on all these dresses but I was like, whatever. So yesss! Now I have new clothes.

Tearaway accepted this! They're gonna pay me for them! OMG OMG!

Clichéd Cogitations
BY ELESE DOWDEN

AQUARIUS
The Queen of Hearts, she made some tarts, all on a summer’s day. The Knave of Hearts scoffed the lot. Don’t trust your mates, they steal your home baking.

PISCES
Rome wasn’t built in a day, and neither was the Titanic. Don’t jinx your boat by calling it the Unsinkable.

ARIES
She loves you, yeah, yeah, yeah. Your fans may have loved you too, John, but you must recall that if it wasn’t for one in particular, you’d still be singing. With a love like that, you know you should be glad.

TAURUS
Sticks and stones may break your bones, but large boulders can kill. Steer clear of Lord of the Flies memorabilia and the local quarry, and you should be fine.

GEMINI
Chitty Chitty Bang Bang, Chitty Chitty Bang Bang, Chitty Chitty Bang Bang, we love you! In no way does this relate to your future or fortune, but it does sound cool.

CANCER
In my day, we didn’t have any of this fame and fortune nonsense. But then the light bulb was invented. Get your A into G and flick your switch before a rotten apple falls on your head and knocks you into a coma.

LEO
Civil Defence will save us! Yeah, right, says Tui. Drown your sorrows instead; that way we’ll ALL have a better chance of survival. Yeah, right.

VIRGO
A, B, C, D, E, F, G. There are only two places that success comes before work; the dictionary and Big Wednesday. Save yourself some money, the lotto ticket is cheaper. H, I, J, K, L, M, N, O, P.

LIBRA
My grandmother taught me to always wear clean underwear, in case I get hit by a bus. Someday, your bus will come, and your underwear will be the least of your worries.

SCORPIO
She looks like a flower but she stings like a bee! Fortunately for Ricky, not every man wants to date a Venus Fly Trap.

SAGGITARIUS
Tina, come get some ham! Napoleon is secretly trying to tell you that you’re too skinny. Gawsh.

CAPRICORN
Poi E, whaka-tata mai! Now this one’s a no-brainer. Cut and paste with the help of that annoying paperclip and you’ll have yourself an abstract Chart Hit. Poi…Heads, shoulders, knees and toes, TAKU POI E!

WELL I have re-posted this massive playlist on my other blog.

http://blondandahalf.blogspot.com/

And it's fully awesome (it's for a 50th but I think I need more songs). So yeah. I wish I could eat chocolate now! Gawsh Gawsh I may have to borrow money off of someone. Lol. Bad habit!!! Yuko-Amelia, can you pinch me whenever I try to borrow money off someone? I always pay it back, promise. Don't pinch hard!!!

Love yas all
xxx

I had the greatest idea for Parachute 2007. I'm going to take an umbrella and then I won't have to muck around wearing hats and sunnies and sunblock. YUSSSSSSSSS! I can just pick up my umbrella and rock on up - no more burns!

xxxx

OMG i am so annoyed by people who make the effort to actually tell me that they think blythe is ugly! If they have opinions like that, I don't really want to hear them. For the record, Blythe is beautiful.

Okay so yeah my funky mate YukoAmelia is going to make me a dp. OMG I want a blythe doll so bad. I think that once you have one, you're hooked. No one gets why I want to spend so much on a Blythe! And cause I live in NZ I can only get one off the net, no one knows what they are over here. They're so pretty.

Ew, like I sound like an old man with a respiratory illness. Oooh, that makes me sad. And when I breathe deep, it sounds like I'm having an asthma attack. But no one is like "OMG! CALL THE PARAMEDIC!". Oh well. One day I will get my ride in an ambulance. Not sure what for, but I think I will.

I am thinking about eating the chocolate bar in my pocket. Maybe. Maybe I will share it with YukoAmelia and Nix in English.

Uh oh. The power went out last nite and we were cooking tea on the bbq UNTIL yours truly had an ingenious idea.
Our house is run on gas, right? BOY WAS I RIGHT.
It was fanty.
So yeah, I've posted again on blogger.

LOL this is my first entry. Excuse, I don't really know how to use livejournal.
http://blondandahalf.blogspot.com
That's my normal blog.